Day in the Week (Long Week)

Some weeks feel like they zoom by while others move as slow as a turle. Well, this week has been one heck of a turtle.

When I first returned to work I had a really hard time dropping Graham off at daycare. Mostly because I loved being a stay-at-home mom. I got things accomplished and I enjoyed seeing Graham grow and change. Then Matthew had him for the summer and got him into a great routine and I was fine to go to work. However, those feelings of really wanting to be at home are starting to creep back in. I know I am very lucky that I only work four days a week so I do get a 3-day weekend with my son every week. But, is that enough?

Both Matthew and I grew up with stay-at-home moms. We got to go on adventures with our moms and spend time at home playing with our little brothers. Now I am not a proponent of all women staying home, but I do feel strongly that one of Graham's parents should. Essentially if my child is in daycare four days per week for nine hours plus most kids sleep 10-12 hours at night that means Matthew and I get to see our child for about four hours per day. That is not very much. And, that means I am allowing my child to be "raised" by someone other than myself and Matthew.

Luckily, we have an awesome daycare provider who provides a safe and fun environment for Graham and the other kiddos to play. I don't have any problem dropping him off at her house, because I know he will be well taken care of.

The biggest reason why one of us is not staying home is due to health insurance. It's expensive. I've had cancer. I am a woman of "child bearing" age. And the list goes on. And, I admit I do enjoy the perks of being a two-income family. We can go out to eat and buy newer vehicles and take trips. So, for now we continue to trudge on and provide the best Matthew and I can for our family. But, I sure do miss Graham's big blue eyes and warm hugs during the day.